It's funny, one gets caught deep in the recesses of their emotions and tries desperately to find their way out only to beat themselves up for getting caught up...Well, I got caught up and beat myself up for being stuck...when everything else around me has been moving forward, emotionally I've been still...very, very still..Like nothing. Feeling only the periphery of my joy, pain, sadness, pride, fulfillment...I have been my most stoic self. The difference between the stoic and how I was feeling was the stoic self was/is the act of covering up the emotions verses my non emotions. I've been asking myself WTF IS GOING? No answer, just silence and no real feelings...wanting desperately to cry...but nothing. I think I've finally realized what has been going on, I've been caught up in the weeds of change. LOTS AND LOTS of change and overwhelming feelings to boot. At first I found myself desperately cutting through the tall weeds of change feeling like I was getting