I feel like i've been on a really long writing hiatus...well because I guess I have. If I could only string together every single word, sentence and single paragraph that I started & stopped over the past several months/year...Strung together to make some compelling, inspired thought. That last paragraph has been as far as I've been able to get for months...So this is me pushing myself past paragraph one. Here goes. Persist - I've spent much of my adult life battling myself. Against the doubt, the self sabotage when I got to close to FINALLY getting what I wanted, the fear of not being the right person to fulfill my "grandiose" dream. I've battled year after, month, after day, after minute after second. I battle(d). As my thoughts linger on the time lost, at least that was part of the narrative that left/leaves the deepest wound...How could you waste so much time in a battle you created & fueled for the slow destruction of self when you&#