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When The Universe Calls.....Answer!

This or something better...At least that is what I would love to believe or need to believe as my truth to continue to have faith in the unknown future. Think about it, all you have is hard work, small to no results and encouraging words. And if you are really on the right emotional path you sometimes get that anxious feeling that resides deep your belly. Really?!

So then it happens, the universe answers.  It's never anything outright though.  It usually shows up in the form of multiple choice situations.  (a) Do X and leave Y, although X is new, it could maybe be the best decision you ever made...or not (b) Although X sounds good, Y is what you really need to do because, it's just cool or at least that is what everyone else keeps telling you. (c) Do nothing, shut down or retreat and run like hell!  Okay, so (c) is not always the best option, but it is the most consistent option.  (a) & (b) more often than not present themselves in different ways, yet (c), well (c) is forever there.

I think what happens is that there are times when you are completely prepared to choose and then there are those times when you are overwhelmed by your choices.  I know you asked for it, but being ready for what you asked for when it shows up is different then when you are simply having a moment and saying"God I really want...."  The moment you actually get to experience your wishes and dreams come to pass, the feelings you have aren't always to run and embrace them initially.  It can feel so unreal because you know that you've worked your tail off, toiled, cried and prayed for it for so long and then it shows up...In different forms though.  The multiple choice I spoke about earlier.

About that multiple choice, I think it's the Universe or God's way of making sure you really know what you want.  To make sure you are paying attention to the details of the life that you have been begging for. Maybe it is also God's way of giving you the option to choose an okay life or a spectacular one...



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