MOTHER'S MILK WORLD

I feel like i've been on a really long writing hiatus...well because I guess I have.  If I could only string together every single word, sentence and single paragraph that I started & stopped over the past several months/year...Strung together to make some compelling, inspired thought. That last paragraph has been as far as I've been able to get for months...So this is me pushing myself past paragraph one.  Here goes. Persist - I've spent much of my adult life battling myself.  Against the doubt, the self sabotage when I got to close to FINALLY getting what I wanted, the fear of not being the right person to fulfill my "grandiose" dream.  I've battled year after, month, after day, after minute after second.  I battle(d).  As my thoughts linger on the time lost, at least that was part of the narrative that left/leaves the deepest wound...How could you waste so much time in a battle you created & fueled for the slow destruction of self when you&#

My heart is breaking much like so many other people in the wake of the horrible tragedy in Charlston.  Nine people died in the midst of prayer & reflection.  Died opening their hearts and doors to a very lost soul... To The MEN  who were the leaders and examples of excellence, The Honorable Rev. Clementa Pinckney (41) ...Ashe Rev. Daniel Simmons Sr.(76) ...Ashe - Tywanza Sanders (26) ...Ashe.   Thank you for showing us what it looks like to live an impeccable life.  Thank you for being the pride of the community.                                   To The WOMEN The beautiful mama souls that were violently taken from us. Taking in the pictures, stories and words that loved ones have been sharing shows how these blessed women were the hugs, the love, the words of encouragement, the prayers, the glue, the sunday dinners, the only one who understood, the one who forgave, the consistency, the sustainers, the inspirers, the healing kisses, the love, the love, the love, the love,

I hope you all have had a wonderful Mother's Day! I just wanted to share a podcast that I had done with my son.  Please let me know your thoughts and I hope it inspires you to allow your child to interview you. have a great Mother's Day! http://www.buzzsprout.com/admin/episodes/271333-a-conversation-with-my-boy-m4a

Damn the teenage years are hard!  First let me start by saying I have a pretty amazing kid.  He is funny, sweet, handsome, thoughtful, talented, loving, cool and so forth and so on...He's awesome! But, back to my original thought, raising a teenager is so hard.  It's hard for me because i'm continually grappling with the good cop, bad cop.  Struggling because I've been  putting my foot down about so many things i'm finding that the soles of my feet are ache from the pressure.  Man I miss the toddler years when his wants, needs & discipline were simple and usually one dimensional. I hate to use my single momma card, but i'm using it!  I am the total provider.  I am the one that makes things happen.  I am the one that has to make all the decisions from what's for breakfast to what high school to what the consequences should be when he steps way out of line, to figuring out what if a home remedy makes more sense than a doctor to where to find the moti