MOTHER'S MILK WORLD

I feel like i've been on a really long writing hiatus...well because I guess I have.  If I could only string together every single word, sentence and single paragraph that I started & stopped over the past several months/year...Strung together to make some compelling, inspired thought. That last paragraph has been as far as I've been able to get for months...So this is me pushing myself past paragraph one.  Here goes. Persist - I've spent much of my adult life battling myself.  Against the doubt, the self sabotage when I got to close to FINALLY getting what I wanted, the fear of not being the right person to fulfill my "grandiose" dream.  I've battled year after, month, after day, after minute after second.  I battle(d).  As my thoughts linger on the time lost, at least that was part of the narrative that left/leaves the deepest wound...How could you waste so much time in a battle you created & fueled for the slow destruction of self when yo...

My heart is breaking much like so many other people in the wake of the horrible tragedy in Charlston.  Nine people died in the midst of prayer & reflection.  Died opening their hearts and doors to a very lost soul... To The MEN  who were the leaders and examples of excellence, The Honorable Rev. Clementa Pinckney (41) ...Ashe Rev. Daniel Simmons Sr.(76) ...Ashe - Tywanza Sanders (26) ...Ashe.   Thank you for showing us what it looks like to live an impeccable life.  Thank you for being the pride of the community.                                   To The WOMEN The beautiful mama souls that were violently taken from us. Taking in the pictures, stories and words that loved ones have been sharing shows how these blessed women were the hugs, the love, the words of encouragement, the prayers, the glue, the sunday dinners, the only one who understood, the one who fo...

I hope you all have had a wonderful Mother's Day! I just wanted to share a podcast that I had done with my son.  Please let me know your thoughts and I hope it inspires you to allow your child to interview you. have a great Mother's Day! http://www.buzzsprout.com/admin/episodes/271333-a-conversation-with-my-boy-m4a

Damn the teenage years are hard!  First let me start by saying I have a pretty amazing kid.  He is funny, sweet, handsome, thoughtful, talented, loving, cool and so forth and so on...He's awesome! But, back to my original thought, raising a teenager is so hard.  It's hard for me because i'm continually grappling with the good cop, bad cop.  Struggling because I've been  putting my foot down about so many things i'm finding that the soles of my feet are ache from the pressure.  Man I miss the toddler years when his wants, needs & discipline were simple and usually one dimensional. I hate to use my single momma card, but i'm using it!  I am the total provider.  I am the one that makes things happen.  I am the one that has to make all the decisions from what's for breakfast to what high school to what the consequences should be when he steps way out of line, to figuring out what if a home remedy makes more sense than a doctor to where ...

Proverbs 29:18 If there is no vision the people will perish So what exactly does this proverb mean?  Well, simply put, a dream goal fantasy idea whatever you want to call it has to start with a feeling that turns into a thought that grows into an idea that is fed by a strong urge, which some people refer to as passion that manifests into a vision. A few definitions of vision I have found: 1. The manner in which one sees or conceives of something. 2. The mental image produced by the imagination. 3. Unusual competence in discernment or perception; intelligent foresight. 4. The faculty of sight 5. Something that is or has been seen. Imagine our world if Ben Franklin, MLK, Sojurner Truth,  The Wright Brothers, Stevie Wonder, Oprah, Steve Jobs...I could go on and on.  Each of these individuals had at some point or another fantacized about their achievements.  Because they decided to leave fantasy island and manifest their ideas, humanity has been ...

My mind was a little bit blown at church today!  So you know the usually songs, church hype person gets on the mic to get everyone ready for an awesome message (show).  After the hype person gets everyone's energy in a great space, then comes the moment we have all been waiting for...the anointed message as shared by one of the chosen vessels who've answered the call to preach/teach/reach/guide the masses through this beautiful/confusing/frustrating/amazing spiritual life that we've all been granted. Pastor Mark opened with quoting Matthew 7 (Ask and it shall be given - seek and ye shall find - knock and the door will be open to you.  I have heard and read this scripture at least a thousand times over the years and never truly broke it down like it was broken down for me. Ok, here is the quick and dirty of each of the three sections of what stuck with me. 1. Ask and it shall be give - Over the years I would read this line and think that I whatever God d...

Why, of all the words and phrases that have been uttered in Oscars do Sally Field's words stay with us? "You like me, you really do like me!"   Finally feeling loved, respected and most of all validated by her peers.  Although she has stated that her words were parodied from a few lines in her movie Norma Rae, these words resonated deeply with people. It's human nature to want validation.  It's human nature to want people to like you.  It's not abnormal at all to compromise a bit of yourself to be more likable, compromise a bit of yourself to be validated. The problem comes in when you start to lose yourself in compromise.  Lose yourself in what other people feel and think about you.  It becomes a problem because now it's no longer about you, but about everyone else and what they think of you.    What starts as innocent and simple want for validation becomes a necessity.  Becomes the make you make decisions.  Becomes t...