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God Chose Me

Thank you 2012

So here we are at the end of yet another year. 2012 was a strength builder for sure! This year in my own life I experienced incredible moments of self pride and self worth as well as moments of complete humility. My heart was filled with unbelievable pain and heartache as well as an overwhelming and abundant feeling of love. In the world people seemed to be pushed to to brink of strength and survival. From the natural disasters that destroyed people's way of living to unspeakable tragedies that tore apart families & communities. This world was pushed.

Throughout it all, I knew, I was blessed and loved and supported and no matter what, just fine.
What I also wad amazed to see in the world was the human spirit at work at the highest vibration. From 14 year old activist, Malala Yousufzai who was shot for wanting to learn to hurricane Sandy taking out whole communities, to the stupid amounts of people being killed on streets of Chicago and the tragic deaths of Newtown to the young girls being raped in India. People banded together to protest, rebuild, pray, cry, raise money, raise awareness, heal and so forth etc...

So as I am sitting in my home, I am
overwhelmed by the blessings the universe has heaped upon my whole life. God chose me to be born of parents who chose to leave their homes to raise me in a country filled with every kind of convenience and abundance. God blessed me with a mother that worked incredibly hard to give me a safe and enriched existence. God chose me to be healthy mind body and spirit. God chose me to survive all of my dangerous mistakes unscathed, God chose me to give birth to an amazing child who is healthy. God chose me live in a time and space where I can express myself freely, live my life how I see fit, love whom I choose to love. God chose me...so when I look back on 2012, thank you God for choosing me to not have to live through some of the atrocities that many of my fellow beings are surviving through now. Thank you for choosing me to live yet another year of such a blessed life. Cheers to 2013!


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  1. Thank you for reminding me how very blessed I am. Happy New Year!

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  2. Thank you and Happy New Year to you too!

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