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My Biggest Opponent

There are very few movies I walk away from feeling proud, moved & inspired...Creed
I felt like a proud mom knowing that this beautiful movie was directed by a young driven brother whose honored his father who passed away by directing this gem of a movie.  Both my son and I spent the rest of our night obsessing over the soundtrack quoting the movie. One of the quotes that stuck with me.  That resonated deeply because it felt so relevant at this moment in my life was...

"You see this guy here? That's the toughest opponent you're ever going to have to face. I believe that's true in the ring, and I think that's true in life. Now show me something!" 


God this has been my lifelong battle.  I have effectively talked myself out of so many opportunities that the universe set up for my good.  I've taken a thousand momentous forward moving steps only to suddenly stop & dig my heels into a bed of quicksand layered with fear. Why?  Because it felt like i was moving to fast.  Like feeling I felt of fulfillment and purpose driven could not be meant for me.  So many people around me suffering, why would I be the blessed one who was able to enjoy my life.  


I have been my biggest opponent for far to long.  It truly is time for me to start being my own personal cheerleader, my champion and move out of my own way.  It ain't easy, that's for sure.  Old habits die hard and quite often leave you pretty scarred & afraid to move forward. With fear lining the gloves that are ready to take me up,  I need to remember that fear & failure equals foundations for success!   I've got big things to do man!  

This is a year of authenticity! Of no fear of making things happen that you thought impossible but finally realizing the spelling of the word is I'm-possible! This is the year of honoring your truth...your real truth..which is not fear but being fearless...limitless! This is the year I stop being my biggest naysayer and in-turn be my biggest cheerleader. This is the year I embrace the me that people always tell me about.  2016 is going to be no joke!


#fullestexpressionofself2016


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  1. YAAASSSS!!! We are indeed our biggest opponent! Love this, Ida!
    Toni

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