MOTHER'S MILK WORLD

Do you have any addictions?  What are they?   Food, drugs, people, TV, work, attention, a person, cigarettes, exercise, sex...this list could go on and on...What is/was that trigger in your life that flipped that switch on for this addiction?  Have/has your addiction(s) played a role throughout your life or have/has it just showed made a dramatic entrance into your life? I believe that addictions are cravings that have gone completely HAYWIRE!   One day you have an innocent craving for some savory/sweet something and the next thing you know, you are going out of your way to sacrifice life and limb to satiate the insatiable. Then when your craving has "mutated" into a full blown addiction you start to loose your spirital voice...so this now "mutated"addiction has now become a toxic aura that acts as a thick veil isolating you from the rest of the world.  How and why did you get here? Triggers...Somthing that occurs and in a moments time causes you to f...

So how to start the week off in a great way?  How about with a plan that feeds mind, body, spirit and dreams...something I learned in church this weekend. Affirmation:  I believe that life is for me 1. make a list of 10 things (or more) that you want 2. Give each thing a number from 1-10     > 1 being the most attainable in the next 6 months     > 10 not believing you can attain it in the next 6 months All that God/Universe has to offer is available to you.  The challenge is getting past our limiting sensabilities.    What we need to do is to start each day with: 1. Acceptance - The answer to all my problems today (accept things for what they are and keep it moving) 2. Responsibility - Blaming no one (including myself) for what is occuring - Life happens! 3. Defenselessness -  Lean into everything with a spirit of love and your defenses automatically dissipate. Here is your opportunity to mani...

Who/What makes up your community?  Family, friends, coworkers, regular strangers on your bus route, your cyberworld, or maybe your four legged or dare I say no legged creature named_____...Do your individual/collective commmunities emotionally, spiritually, physically feed you?   In a time of crisis, how would your community respond?  Over the last few weeks, i've experienced the loss of a loved one in two different communities. The first, was the accidental death of a young fourteen year old boy who was so close to my nephew that they really saw each other as brothers, so needless to say this was a devastating blow.  What made it even more tragic was how Noah's life was taken away.  A good friend of his accidentally shot him as they played with this kid's grandfather's gun.  So now instead of having lost one 14 year old life, another 14 year old life was/is changed forever.  Unfathomable trauma and pain.  Something I couldn't or wouldn't w...

It's been a while, I know, but i'm back.  Is it silence or patience that claims to be virtuous?  Whatever the case, both my silence and patience have brought me to an unbelieveable space.    Just know that I will be sharing more and well...I'M BACK!

It's funny, one gets caught deep in the recesses of their emotions and tries desperately to find their way out only to beat themselves up for getting caught up...Well, I got caught up and beat myself up for being stuck...when everything else around me has been moving forward, emotionally I've been still...very, very still..Like nothing.  Feeling only the periphery of my joy, pain, sadness, pride, fulfillment...I have been my most stoic self.  The difference between the stoic and how I was feeling was the stoic self was/is the act of covering up the emotions verses my non emotions.  I've been asking myself WTF IS GOING? No answer, just silence and no real feelings...wanting desperately to cry...but nothing. I think I've finally realized what has been going on, I've been caught up in the weeds of change.  LOTS AND LOTS of change and overwhelming feelings to boot.  At first I found myself desperately cutting through the tall weeds of change feeling like I was get...

Well, the time has come to say good bye to the sometimes cumbersome and many times rewarding layers of my 30s  and hello to finally embracing the layers of my 40s.  I know life isn't going to be suddenly a walk in the park, but I plan on implementing all those lessons that I've learned thus far and using them to create a flower lined path to and through the park.  I'm starting to get it more now.  Layer 30 was cautiously optimistic while layer 35 was shock and awe as adulthood took on new levels of crazy.  Layers 36 - 38 we'll just call resolve.  It was just time to do Something/anything differently, and I did.  Then there was layer 39, well, it was tough and not until 39 and 1 day till 40 did I realize I was mourning the closing of this 30s section/chapter of my life.  It's a big change, one number which is supposed to represent how far I've come thus far, but it's over and I've come a long way baby, that is the conversation I had with myself. ...

Over the years, I've run into moments in my life where I've gotten caught up in macro verses the micro.  Instead of focusing on getting my footing as I make/made my way up my Kilimanjaro challenge, obstacle, moment whatever, my eyes would instead focus in on the enormity of what was/is ahead/in front of me leaving me feeling overwhelmed and defeated.  I know, I know - "Just put one foot in front of the other" - "focus on the moment you are in" - "don't make a mountain out of a molehill" - "baby steps" etc... What many of us do is spend our time reaching for the very out of reach top of the mountain while steadily climbing toward it ignoring every step we've painstakingly taken thus far. Ignoring these steps is so dangerous. Not accessing how far you've come already can cause you to misinterpret how close you are to attaining your goal causing  you to want to give up and let go...At least that is how I have functioned in th...